Upbeat or Beat-up....

I am a fairly upbeat person - I try to see the good in people, places, and situations around me. I try. This "seeing of good" has been a lot more challenging than usual of late. Teresa and I are still quite under-employed which is slowing down forward momentum to a near crawl... don't get me wrong, I am not opposed to a good crawl once in a while... especially after some good - really good - drinking... but this feels like stuck in the mud. The constant spinning of tires and crawling through muck... while an awesome exercise in the building of character... is both frustrating and time consuming... and definitely not yielding the desired result - which simply put - is a consistent flow of income that allows for some other choices to be made. Choices that are proactive instead of reactive. That would mean launching our businesses and working for ourselves instead of looking for "jobs" that are ultimately neither satisfying or long term profitable. It seems that everything in our experience here has been about the short term fix... which rounds back to more of the same - over and over and over and over again. I get it, I think I understand how people here stay here for decades and ultimately have nothing more to show for it than a really shiny Ford F-150 in the driveway with a mini-van sitting next to it in front a cookie cutter house that looks like every other house on the block and is equally mortgage to the max. Ultimately these people have jobs they hate but can never quit (or be fired from) lest they risk losing everything they have worked for their whole lives... including their good name and status in the community... this is fine, I've go no issue with people here and what they want... if that is all you want out of the infinite possibilities that life has to offer... then party on and have it... I guess I want more... a lot more... I may not just need the special menu... I may need a whole new restaurant...